Looong medical break!

I was away....for a looooooooooong time! Happy that im back, just finished reading one of my friends contribution in msn...its awesome. I strongly recommend it - the link is http://content.msn.co.in/Contribute/Lifestyle/UCStory2044.htm.

It inspired me to blog again and also to post one of my past blogs in msn contribute. Now waiting for the panel to approve and publish the same. Lets see what happens...

Last week, i was feeling very feverish and within 24hrs of time it was confirmed viral fever and i started driving down to calicut with ma friend!

Flash back: 72 hours before - My friends from calicut arrive to recieve our dear friend zu who is coming from dubai. We all were n our best of moods and were already celebrating his arrival. Our man landed safely in blore airport and then we go directly to "the beach" We have one helluva time there - i, shoi, shinju, shammu and zu - our gang which was formed a decade ago and still going strong.

Conversations were started from where we left off months or years back and we were like college students once again. We were having a great time i must say with all the alchohol flowing(tequilas were repeated thrice)

Next day was saturday and we started our day late, iron maiden was playing that nite. I, zu and shammu went for the show - maiden did not play numbers which i knew. But still i was fascinated by the stage and by seeing the legends playing live! Got to hit on some pretty gals too :) We got out of the concert just before it got over and headed to a place called 13h floor.

Twist in the story...one guy in my team is quitting! Good decision right? Why am i not able to do it? Too bad na? Its been more than half a decade that im here and still sulking! Im sad that he is leaving, he was such a cheerful guy - i must say. Good luck to him, GOD bless.

Back to the story - after the 13th floor stint and all the tequilas we headed back home and sunday was farewell day. Shnju, shoi and sham left to cali and i, zu and noush were in the hotel. Night was spent at HINT. Silent and relaxing terrace fun!
And finally it was monday, i dragged myself back to work and it was not that interesting anyways...

Tragedy struck again in 48 hours - a neat burglary at my apartment. A v3i and p910i and 60k in cash was gone. Fortunately the guy who came inside ma apartment did not see my laptop and watches i guess...as a result we had a fun filled day in the police station, filing FIR with the cops. How unlucky im u see...

24 hours down - i was suffering from fever, diagnosed by the noighbourhood hospital doc(i hope he is one)
And there i and ma friend go to calicut - driving towards gods own country - one eventful week in cali after that...

Another day at work!

Another day at work, just finished my team lunch at a posh hotel. Obviously, feeling very sleepy after that - i bet u wil after a seven course lunch!!! I dont know what happened today, but im feeling very tensed. Is it because im very uncertain about my future or am i worried whether i will lose everything what i have built in the few years - in a way im thinking, why am i worried when im not sure whether i will get up of my seat alive...how many of us actually think about that - the glaring truth of uncertainty, the fact of life. You really don't know what is going to happen to you the next second, i cant say for sure whether i will complete typing this blog and post it. but still worried about all the material possessions and how to safe guard it from others.

I also discovered a very weird thing today, what we are taught from childhood is "never trust anybody", "be careful when you deal with people". why are we so scared of our own species, why do we like to stamp on somebody Else's head to move forward. cant we do that by just holding hands? I guess not, im thinking too mucch of a ideal place to live - probably thats what they call heaven.

Now i have to sit around for another 5 hours in this building staring at my laptop thinking what to do! I can see people walking away aiming the door, i guess they have people waiting back home and they are glad that its a weekend! I also have parents, sisters, brothers, aunts, uncles, grand parents etc but still im living alone. I'm enjoying my space or do I???- and i guess i should call space - the vacuum. I dont feel like going back to that vacuum which is waiting for me back home. Do i have a choice?

Another weekend is around the corner - and im not excited!!! Am i not excited about meeting my friends? am i not excited about cruising in my car and moving around with gorgeous women, drinking and partying. What do i really want to do? I dont know, i try hard to get a date and when i do get one and i dont wanna go!!! whats wrong with me? am i getting impotent or am i getting fed up of this lifestyle. what is that i want in life, im a confused soul today and i hate being in this state...i really hope that i get out of this state very fast.

The best part about IT/ITES companies are that you work out of cubicles and your privacy close to -0. one guy is sitting next to me and talking to his wife, discussing which movie to go for tonite. I cant help but listen coz he is fighting with her so loudly!!!

Talking about movies - i want to watch this movie called Pursuit of happiness! i saw the trailer today when i was watching the idiot box! my gut feeling is its a good movie(my friends say that i say that about each n every single English movie, but its not true ;) )

I have a call with a firang at 10 30 pm and im done, but for some weird reason i dont feel like going home tonite, why is that? I will figure out sooon...

Once again...waiting for the weekend! i have a list of chores listed to complete 2mrw and i can almost guarantee that i will not finish even half of that...im such a lazy bum. but i genuinely want to you know!

I will start talking about my friends next week...signing off - cu next week, have a nice weekend!!!