Looong medical break!

I was away....for a looooooooooong time! Happy that im back, just finished reading one of my friends contribution in msn...its awesome. I strongly recommend it - the link is http://content.msn.co.in/Contribute/Lifestyle/UCStory2044.htm.

It inspired me to blog again and also to post one of my past blogs in msn contribute. Now waiting for the panel to approve and publish the same. Lets see what happens...

Last week, i was feeling very feverish and within 24hrs of time it was confirmed viral fever and i started driving down to calicut with ma friend!

Flash back: 72 hours before - My friends from calicut arrive to recieve our dear friend zu who is coming from dubai. We all were n our best of moods and were already celebrating his arrival. Our man landed safely in blore airport and then we go directly to "the beach" We have one helluva time there - i, shoi, shinju, shammu and zu - our gang which was formed a decade ago and still going strong.

Conversations were started from where we left off months or years back and we were like college students once again. We were having a great time i must say with all the alchohol flowing(tequilas were repeated thrice)

Next day was saturday and we started our day late, iron maiden was playing that nite. I, zu and shammu went for the show - maiden did not play numbers which i knew. But still i was fascinated by the stage and by seeing the legends playing live! Got to hit on some pretty gals too :) We got out of the concert just before it got over and headed to a place called 13h floor.

Twist in the story...one guy in my team is quitting! Good decision right? Why am i not able to do it? Too bad na? Its been more than half a decade that im here and still sulking! Im sad that he is leaving, he was such a cheerful guy - i must say. Good luck to him, GOD bless.

Back to the story - after the 13th floor stint and all the tequilas we headed back home and sunday was farewell day. Shnju, shoi and sham left to cali and i, zu and noush were in the hotel. Night was spent at HINT. Silent and relaxing terrace fun!
And finally it was monday, i dragged myself back to work and it was not that interesting anyways...

Tragedy struck again in 48 hours - a neat burglary at my apartment. A v3i and p910i and 60k in cash was gone. Fortunately the guy who came inside ma apartment did not see my laptop and watches i guess...as a result we had a fun filled day in the police station, filing FIR with the cops. How unlucky im u see...

24 hours down - i was suffering from fever, diagnosed by the noighbourhood hospital doc(i hope he is one)
And there i and ma friend go to calicut - driving towards gods own country - one eventful week in cali after that...

Why m still working?

This is my first stint in the blogging world! I'm not sure why i did not explore this area till date...but glad im doing atleast now!!! m feeling a generation gap when i realized that blogging is in existence for ages now.

I'm a 28 year old who is working for a multi national company(large faceless organization) as most of the educated indian youth is now. And definitely going through a mid life crisis as i realize that im nearing 30(almost 50% of my lifetime in this planet)and a an ugly reality is dawning upon me - WHY M STILL WORKING!

Dont misunderstand me when i say "Why m still working", you should read that as why am i working for a large faceless organization where im just a split of a drop in the sea. Am i contributing anything to the company or am i contributing anything to the world - i guess the answer for both is NO. But definitely im contributing very well to push myself into the rat race deeper and deeper day by day. I have atleast 3 EMI's and a bunch of credit cards(which is always glaring at me with bold red numbers I owe to the bank)

Sometimes i feel m working for Citibank, not for the the company which has employed me. Coz I measure everything in terms of how much i can pay citibank this month and how much more can i borrow so that i can maintain an inflated,non-existent,hypocrite lifestyle. I wonder what am i chasing everyday, definitely not anything which is measurable or nor am i making any hard savings for the company. Everything is VIRTUAL, the salary i get - i just see the numbers credited to my account. Then i spend that using my debit/credit card - what i harldy spend as cash every month is 2-3k. So am i really sitting in this air conditioned structure for more than 10 hrs a day to touch and feel 3000 bucks - is it worth it? I dont know, im not sure?

I sometimes think that i should just say fuck off to my boss and quit the company and do something i love...something im passionate about - but then the biggest problem emerges, what is my passion. Sometimes i feel i should be a entrepreneur - hahaha - do i really want to lead a life like that??? Or probably i want to lead a quiet happy life in some green valley taking care of my garden and a little house - then how will i get my bread?

I then wanted to explore and understand who created this amazing phenomenon called Money! Imagine a world without money and you have the world at your disposal - is it something which is next to impossible or nobody ever ventured out in that way. Cant you really get everything what you want from the earth? To eat, to wear, to commute etc - So why you want to make some stupid products which you dont want and make people believe that its impossible to live without those?!?

I started reading "the monk who sold his ferrari" and i stopped reading it midway of fear - whether i will do something like that in my life.

Right now im sitting in my office without knowing what to do to kill the next few hours and waste another day without doing anything for myself nor for others - and the highlight im expecting a pink slip anytime coz the company doesnt have any work for me or i want to believe it that way? I don't know why im mentioning this now but if somebody hasnt watched fight club then they should[not the hindi version :)]